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Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Inspirational Stones....

 May the Luck o' the Irish be with you today and always. 

I have seen stones in stores for decoration purposes with a variety of words on them. I decided I wanted to have some of these stones at home, in a place where I could see them, or pick them up and meditate on the word written. 

They looked simple enough to make and indeed they are. 

All you need is some River Rocks (preferably ones that have smooth surfaces) and a metallic permanent marker in Silver. I washed the stones prior to marking on them so I had a clean surface in which to write upon. 

I set all my materials out in front of me. I picked up a stone and wrote whatever word came to my mind as I picked it up. While writing the word I visualized the meaning of the word or something the represented the meaning to me. I then set them aside to dry, so I didn't smudge the writing. 

I didn't seal the writing with varnish or anything. I prefer to have the stones natural. Feel free to use a sealer if you wish. 

Now I have inspirational stones in which to visualize with and decorate with as well. I am all about the multiple use thing lately. I just need to find the right container in which to place the stones so they are easily accessible. 

You can give this a try and randomly pick up a stone. Close your eyes, if you wish. Think upon the word written upon the stone you chose and visualize it. You may be surprised at the reaction you have. 

You could always use smaller stones and carry them around in your purse or pocket and whenever you feel the stone, hold it in your hands and visualize what it represents. For example: if you are in need of confidence, carry the confidence stone around with you and whenever you find you need a little boost. Just hold the stone and visualize situations involving confidence. Visualize yourself as more confident and you may be surprised at the outcome. 

I had a crafty weekend. I made up this set of Inspiration stones and I whipped up a St. Paddy's Day hat for a co-worker. She loved it and wore it well. We Irish Lassies had to stick together on this fine day :) 

Here is the hat I made for her this past weekend. I have to say I am really loving the look of felt and want to make more in different colours. I would wear a mini-top hat every day. 

In honour or St. Patrick's Day I am leaving you all with the following. 

Hugs and Smoochies from the Madhouse

<3 Arawynn <3

Tuesday, March 11, 2014


They say when one door closes another opens. Baker has said he never completely closes doors but given our conversation yesterday, it would seem he does. 

I have been doing a lot of thinking over the last few weeks since last talking to Baker, prior to speaking with him yesterday, of course. It is amazing how taking a step back and looking at the situation from a different angle can change your outlook. 

At one point I thought he and I were perfect for each other but after telling him I couldn't be friends with him and blocking him, (as well as his ex, for good measure) I was able to think clearly and came to the conclusion he wasn't the greatest guy for me after all. I never truly felt comfortable being myself while talking to him, always on edge, afraid to say the wrong thing. I felt psycho-analyzed by him constantly and it was starting to grate on my nerves. Not to mention the fatherly lectures I would get. I already have a dad, thank you. 

Ladies, you should feel comfortable being you and not up on egg shells, in fear of what he will think of you. The right guy will accept you for who you are. You shouldn't have to watch what you say for fear of his reaction. I never knew what to say when talking to Baker because I didn't want to scare him off and the fact of the matter is I wouldn't have scared him off if he truly cared about me.  If he truly cares for you then he will want you in his life and to work with you. Otherwise, you are just wasting time.

Also ladies don't get involved with men that are still hung up on their exes, even if they say you can start off as friends first and work toward a relationship. If they tell you they just got out of a relationship or they still have feelings for their ex, take my advice and walk.  There is no room for you in his heart until he is ready to let go. I fell into that trap and I am passing on the knowledge I have gathered from my latest foray into the world of men. If you are looking for just friends, then by all means go ahead, however, those of you hoping for relationships tread carefully. 

It honestly felt like I was just a place holder until his ex was available again. He said that wasn't the case but his actions spoke otherwise. His fave saying was "Words are pretty, Actions speak louder" so why would he think I wouldn't consider that possibility when that is how it looked to me and others around me. 

Yesterday Baker told me that I would get over this and he and I can't be friends. I think it is cute that he thinks I am still hoping he and I can have a relationship of some kind. I gave up that thought a long while ago and talking to him yesterday just confirmed that for me. I just wanted my book back and to be done with it. As for us being friends, I know we can't be friends, which is why I told him last time I spoke with him that we can't be friends. 

He is choosing to go backward and I choose to move forward. I wouldn't dream of going back to my ex and I was with him for a helluva lot longer than Baker was with his ex and we have a biological child together. I think it is commendable that Baker wants to be there for children that aren't his biologically. There are too few men that can be there for someone else's children. It was one of the things I liked about Baker. I have met so many men that bolt as soon as I mention "the teen" and Baker didn't. It blinded me to all the other faults, however.

Having him going back toward his ex after listening to him bitch about how miserable she made him just boggles my mind and even if he said we could be friends, I wouldn't just for that reason. Personally I think it is a disaster in the making, if they do end up getting back together. It would be like me taking back my ex. *Shudder* 

I know that this doesn't lessen who I am as a person. I don't understand his decision completely but I am not beating myself up over it. There is nothing I could have done as long as he was hung up on his ex and it doesn't mean she is better than me, or she won, just that he is hung up on her and couldn't see me because of it. I know for next time not to get involved with someone in that situation, simple as that. 

I do feel sorry for the next guy that attempts to start something with me. Not only does he have to prove to me that he is worthy of my time, he also has to prove to the Teen as well. The Teen was actually disappointed because he said Baker seemed like a good guy but he just ended up turning out to be a douche in the end and I could do a lot better. I am raising a wise child. 

The teen doesn't believe in playing with a girl's feelings. He has an interesting outlook on dating. He says dating is for finding a spouse and if you aren't planning on settling down any time soon, why date? I am very proud to know he won't be one of those guys that plays girls. 

So all in all I am feeling pretty good. I think Baker expected something more in terms of a reaction to his speech but I really don't feel anything for him. What's done is done and you can't go back. Now there is room in my life for someone that wants to be in it and when I least expect it they will appear. Until that time comes I will continue to do things that bring me joy and creating me and it will be fantastic :)

Hugs and Smoochies from the Madhouse. 

<3 Arawynn <3

Sunday, March 9, 2014

The Countdown is on...

....for Comic Con. 

I purchased tickets for "the teen" and I for our local Comic Con, coming up in a couple of months. 

Both of us are so excited. He actually said he wants to start working on a cosplay idea because last year he was taken unaware, with all the cosplayers. He keeps teetering back and forth on that though. He thinks the ideas he has are too difficult. I told him anything is possible. I have been trying to convince him to go as one of the doctor's since it is fairly easy to acquire costume pieces. He thinks it is overdone. My little hipster :)

As for myself, I have a costume in the works. I have started brainstorming. When I ran the idea by "the teen" he was like "No" but he has warmed up to the idea and has helped me tweak my costume by researching the character online. 

I found an awesome replica of one of the dresses for this character but it is way out of the price range in which I am comfortable with. So I am going with the DIY route. I am handy with a sewing machine so I got this. I am going to "Make it Work" so to speak. Using the words of the awesome Tim Gunn. What can I say I love Project Runway. ^.^ 

Here is a little sneak peek. Any guesses?

I need to tweek the boots a bit to make them more like the actually character. Totally doable. 

I have been totally getting my geek on this weekend. Watched all Six seasons of The Guild. I love Wil Wheaton and Felicia Day. I got my picture taken at last year's con and I squeed when Felicia Day said I was so cute. I seriously had a Rudolph moment when Clarice tells him she thinks he is cute. I totally bolted away from her and Wil Wheaton saying "She thinks I am CUTE! OMG OMG" I remember Wil looking at me as a ran away saying "Nice to meet you" with a completely confused look on his face. Awesome times were had last year. 

Yesterday I spent many hours on my feet attempting to track down black and white striped stockings for my costume and finding none. Even tried online and there is a serious shortage online as well and in efforts to keep expenses low on this endeavour I refuse to pay $20+ for a pair of tights. So I am improvising slightly. Making it work is my mantra, as of late :)

I also signed up for my first painting class yesterday. Should be an interesting activity. I am broadening my horizons and I am actually, very much, looking forward to it. Looking at all the choices in the art supply section of my local craft store is pretty overwhelming but I know I can figure it out. Future big artist maybe? You never know in the Madhouse. 

Live long and...you know the rest. ^.~

Hugs and Smoochies from the Madhouse. 

<3 Arawynn <3

Monday, March 3, 2014


....have been a must over the last few weeks. 

I have started watching The Vampire Diaries again. What can I say, I have a thing for tortured men and Stephan and Damon certainly qualify ^.~ 

Something Elena said really struck a chord with me. I have been trying to put things in perspective lately, and while I had been really down about things not developing further with Baker, life goes on and I am actually good. It was great while it lasted but like she says in the quote, the sun came up and reality set in. I can't forget that it wasn't all negative. I have struggled with finding positives in situations in the past and dwelling on the negative. Trying it differently this time. 

I liked the quote so much I decided to make a little meme for it using one of my photographs. It seemed very Mystic Fall-esque. 

The important thing to remember after something ending, especially if it ends badly, that even if you get hurt life goes on and you can't hide yourself away. You must get back up on your feet and try again. 

Been getting out and exploring. This past weekend I spent time shopping downtown at a bead store I discovered by accident this past fall. They were having a Getting Ready for Spring Sale so naturally I had to pop in and see what I could find. Ended up walking out of there spending under $19 for all of this.

I had almost not gone to the store but I am definitely glad I did. Lucked out, maybe because I was wearing my "Lucky" necklace? Seriously, I have a necklace that says "Lucky". Might wear it more often since I have been finding ridiculous deals lately.  

The plastic containers were only $1 each and everything else was 50% off. Going to be creating some lovely wearable items. I have been interested in Crystals and Gemstones for a long while now. A friend actually lent me her Tiger's Eye bracelet after my falling out with Baker, in January. Tiger's Eye is supposed to help with repelling negativity and boosting self confidence. I have to say that is certainly helped me out. So much so that I am making my own bracelet out of Tiger's Eye to wear. 

When I was picking out the above stones I just let my intuition guide me. It was a good day for me and I found some amazing finds. As I create my pieces I will share them with you and explain the properties of each. I have been learning a lot about minerals, and gemstones. Such beauty to be found in the world. 

I also found a new little friend this weekend. 

I am seriously addicted to Claw Machines. I can't seem to pass one without popping in a Toonie and seeing what I can get. I love to challenge myself and attempt to get multiple little prizes with the claw if I don't get a big prize.  I have to say I am pretty successful at it when you see my collection of little stuffies. I have several larger stuffies as well. Some I actually won for myself. I saw this little guy there and knew he had to come home with me. I believed he would be mine and he was :) Now if I can do that with a man I will be set :P

I used to be scared of the Pac-Man ghosts but this little guy is too cute to be scared of. He now has a permanent home next to my pillow. He can protect me at night *lol*

Spent the rest of the weekend hanging out with the teen watching movies and relaxing. Even managed to get him out of the Madhouse for a few hours to go to the mall. All in all it was a fantastic weekend. I am truly blessed. 

Hope the weekend was good to you all. <3 

Hugs and Smoochies from the Madhouse. 

<3 Arawynn <3